| Nothing can describe the failure |
[Mar. 2nd, 2009|01:51 am] |
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There is nothing, that can be typed in this box. That can describe how terrible of a death I warrent, or how shitty of a person I am. Nothing. |
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| I hurt. |
[Jul. 9th, 2008|04:20 pm] |
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It hurts. I've never been in so much pain before. Every time. It always seems like this. WTF is wrong with me. Everything taste like metal. What the fuck does that mean? |
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| Lonely Days of Hate |
[Dec. 9th, 2007|03:37 pm] |
I'm waiting for that day.....that day when I can finally grab my throat with my own bare hands.....and snap it in two.....
My past days have been filled with nothing short of torment. I can barely stand my own presence. There is too much anger for me to controll. I've heard a tone in my voice, that I have not heard in a loong time. (I'm sorry Tree.) I've cried to the point of paralysis. How much more can my body stand??? |
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| Seperation Anxiety May Cause Death |
[Nov. 21st, 2007|05:02 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Work | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  Dead | ] |
Love will tear this world apart.
I didn't mean to be so cruel to the people in my life. I'm sorry for ending up the way that I am. I didn't want to be this way, but I got pulled into, and I got pulled into it pretty deep. Even though that last statement is arguable; it doesn't make this internal conflict end. My life is in danger, and I don't know what to do.
I appreciate everyone in my life, no matter who they are. Doesn't matter to me how long they have been there, if anyone can put up with me at all, then they are worth mentioning. I am fucked, what's wrong is wrong, and I don't know what to do. As long as i'm breathing I have a choice in this life. That fact confuses me. I don't know if i'm helpless or not. I'm fucked.
This life ends, and everything in it. It's unfortunate. I've come to enjoy so many people in it, but it's sad to say, but one day.....they'll never see me again, and I'll never see them......
With that being said, just know that I am in some serious pain right now. There are things that I love, and I don't want to let them go, but I know that some day i'll have to. |
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| Vindictive |
[Oct. 24th, 2007|10:43 am] |
You know...I think i'll just shut the fuck up from now on. This guy seems to have the right idea. I'm trying of trying to help and all I do is get shot down. Well fuck it. |
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| It hurts all over again. |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|05:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | THE OFFICE | ] |
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| | guilty | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Echo !mage | ] |
I guess I just can't do shit right. I'd appreciate it if everyone would go away now. I don't want to feel anymore pain right now. kthx.
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| Fucking Done |
[Jul. 8th, 2007|06:04 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | WTF? My office! | ] |
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| |  angry | ] |
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| | MOAR Echo !mage | ] |
I'm through with just so much shit. Things are going good for me, but people want to throw their emotions in my life, and try to fuck shit up. If my attempt to make things better don't work on the first attempt, then fuck it. I've got stuff that I want to try and do, if your going to slow me down by trying to make me sympathize with you; then don't pick up the phone to call me, or bother messaging me. How about you just fucking forget me? |
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| ftw |
[Mar. 30th, 2007|02:45 am] |
imo ITT
this shouldn't have been here. I'm really tired, and I just don't know if I'm really losing it to apathy. I don't think that it has been mattering much lately however, because I can't seem to figure this out. It gets harder and harder each time I fight back, and I'm losing much faith. I try to use that wisdom that was given to me a while ago, but it only works when I have faith. I need that first. IT's between the two spectrums but somehow I can't seem to reach the other end, especially when the first is something that I keep coming back too. |
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| Back to normal somewhat. |
[Jan. 31st, 2007|01:00 am] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Fire | ] |
I had to quit my seccond job today. Working two full time jobs was hell of hard, but I never had an uninteresting day. I was constantly amused. I ultimately decided to go back to one job and quit, because my manager was concerned about my work declining performance. Now I'm back to the old scheduled days and its way too familiar.
also dongs |
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| Goheen Man |
[Jan. 26th, 2007|03:06 pm] |
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Today was uneventfull. Even though its not over yet, however Mr. Goheen dropped his car off at work today to get his tires done. His Celica is pretty! :D |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 25th, 2007|05:11 pm] |
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Why do I catch my employees doing crackhead stunts? Why would you dial 911 (much lol) to ask a question about labor laws, and on company phones too. Discuss -_- .
also butts 8====D~~~ dongs too fur sluts loli!!!!!
1up FREE INTERNET |
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| **FRANKIE** |
[Sep. 7th, 2006|02:04 am] |
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holy shit! can anyone actually believe that this a post from me? What's up bitches!? |
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| Corey |
[Apr. 28th, 2006|12:56 am] |
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I'm sorry. Yumishite.... |
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| Tonite |
[Apr. 26th, 2006|03:14 am] |
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That's it. What exactly am I here for? Why am I posting this at 3 in the morning? Maybe it's just another sign about how I'm about to hit rock bottom again. I can feel it. It makes me laugh and cry everytime I think about how many times I have said all of this before. However, it hasn't gone away. So I must be missing something. What is it. It thunderstormed, and not one fucking lightening bolt hit me. That's sad. I can't seem to find "happiness". Especially when surrounded by ignorant little fucks who only want to make themselves, and others just like them feel special. All else is inferior. I am way too close to this window for me to feel like I'm feeling right now. Who's idea was it to put the desk next to the window anyway? It's impossible to please me, so it must be impossible to fix the world to. Maybe that sun will explode and consume us. That won't be so bad will it? This sorry little shitless life that we are all trying to live. Spending tons of wasted energy trying to make it meaningfull, only to fail and fall hard on your face. I'm not the person you wanted me to be nor do I think I can be. So why all of this, why do we sit here and torture each other with our presence? I could have been gone. I haven't even gotten half of what I've deserved. I'm always looking for someone. Someone who won't die, but how childish is that? No Warnings! No Caution! Not anything. No Nothing. Just empty space to wander and exclaim that my little space of oxygen is better than yours, cause it also comes with 2% concentration on NItrogen. woopdy fuckin doo! No one really means anything anymore. It's just that if they are around, it makes me think about what I might do if they weren't here. Doesn't matter tho. I don't know if I like people or hate them. What a stupid thing to say. Of course I wish that sun would eat them. This is starting to make less and less since as I go along. Dumbass. You sorry little faggot. Fuck you and your bastard mother, and you dirty father. I hate you. Why can't I make you go away!!!??? You don't do anything but make others upset so why don't you just shove that blade up your ass and skewer what meats you pull out behind a closed door. No one will ever now what's going on until it's too late. And that's what it all comes down too. It's my fault. Everything. I deserve more than this. I require a greater punishment. I MANDATORY IT! slitting the wrist has become mundane and elementary. No not this time. I need something greater. A big shiny blade to put me to sleep. ( lol i thought i said bladder ) I"m a fucktard. It's all blurry now. I'm about to fix it all. hahahahaha. or maybe that is just me finally becoming retardedly tired. lol, rofl. I'm prolly going to run around downtown for a while screaming that someone stole my mutant gummy bears, because I'm so bored at this time in the morning. I could be working. NOT! <---That's another example of requires deathism! I'm going to do it. Fuck you, and your need for acceptance, I'm fine on my own, and you can rot in hell dammit. how stereo typical of me. Is that one word? |
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| serious gayism |
[Apr. 3rd, 2006|05:14 pm] |
So I have to go to student court because on of my friends harrased a gay guy and they tried to say it was a hate crime. So now I have to go to another school and testify that my friend is indeed not a gay basher because he is friends with many gay people. ( Me for example ) However this doesn't matter cause he's gonna get expelled for having a damn gun anyway. LOL I plan on loling in court really hard in front of the judge!
TIME FOR A SERIOUS FACE!!!
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